Whew! It's almost been two months since my last blog. I think about things daily, "oh i should blog about that" I would like to say it's because I'm very busy and being oh so productive, but I think it's just because I'm lazy and have not chose to blog.
Quick update. Graduation has moved once again to August 13, 2010 (Happy Birthday Tina). I am much more sure about this date. It is not bad. I have chosen to do A&M's internship that goes from Jan-July. I am required to be a student during this time, so official graduation won't be until August. I still plan to finish all my "PhD stuff" this semester. The overall timeline has not changed.
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Today I went Hobby Lobby to look for a house warming gift for a friend of mine. While shopping around, I saw a wall hanging with the following poem (well part of it):
I love you
Not only for what you are,
But for what I am
When I am with you.
I love you,
Not only for what
You have made of yourself,
But for what
You are making of me.
I love you
For the part of me
That you bring out;
I love you
For putting your hand
Into my heaped-up heart
And passing over
All the foolish, weak things
That you can't help
Dimly seeing there,
And for drawing out
Into the light
All the beautiful belongings
That no one else had looked
Quite far enough to find
I love you because you
Are helping me to make
Of the lumber of my life
Not a tavern
But a temple.
Out of the works
Of my every day
Not a reproach
But a song.
I love you
Because you have done
More than any creed
Could have done
To make me good.
And more than any fate
Could have done
To make me happy.
You have done it
Without a touch,
Without a word,
Without a sign.
You have done it
By being yourself.
Perhaps that is what
Being a friend means,
After all.
In true girl fashion, I liked this poem. This being my first year of marriage, I have thought a lot about what I want and what marriage should be. This poem speaks of some of the things I desire in a partnership, really of any kind. I want to be made better through each relationship. Supported, encouraged, pushed to my fullest potential. Some might say I cannot rely on others to make ME better and that is not really what I'm saying either, but I do know the support and love of others is what has allowed me to be successful so far. I also would like the partner to desire to be their best. I'm not sure what my best will bring, but I hope I strive for it and not settle, making excuses for with the best just wouldn't work (which I can see happening at times). On the other hand, I would like contentment and happiness in whatever life would bring.
Quick update. Graduation has moved once again to August 13, 2010 (Happy Birthday Tina). I am much more sure about this date. It is not bad. I have chosen to do A&M's internship that goes from Jan-July. I am required to be a student during this time, so official graduation won't be until August. I still plan to finish all my "PhD stuff" this semester. The overall timeline has not changed.
....
Today I went Hobby Lobby to look for a house warming gift for a friend of mine. While shopping around, I saw a wall hanging with the following poem (well part of it):
I love you
Not only for what you are,
But for what I am
When I am with you.
I love you,
Not only for what
You have made of yourself,
But for what
You are making of me.
I love you
For the part of me
That you bring out;
I love you
For putting your hand
Into my heaped-up heart
And passing over
All the foolish, weak things
That you can't help
Dimly seeing there,
And for drawing out
Into the light
All the beautiful belongings
That no one else had looked
Quite far enough to find
I love you because you
Are helping me to make
Of the lumber of my life
Not a tavern
But a temple.
Out of the works
Of my every day
Not a reproach
But a song.
I love you
Because you have done
More than any creed
Could have done
To make me good.
And more than any fate
Could have done
To make me happy.
You have done it
Without a touch,
Without a word,
Without a sign.
You have done it
By being yourself.
Perhaps that is what
Being a friend means,
After all.
In true girl fashion, I liked this poem. This being my first year of marriage, I have thought a lot about what I want and what marriage should be. This poem speaks of some of the things I desire in a partnership, really of any kind. I want to be made better through each relationship. Supported, encouraged, pushed to my fullest potential. Some might say I cannot rely on others to make ME better and that is not really what I'm saying either, but I do know the support and love of others is what has allowed me to be successful so far. I also would like the partner to desire to be their best. I'm not sure what my best will bring, but I hope I strive for it and not settle, making excuses for with the best just wouldn't work (which I can see happening at times). On the other hand, I would like contentment and happiness in whatever life would bring.
Another thing I have been contemplating, now that I am married, "how much of this life is my own?" As another chapter of my education comes to an end, I am faced with choices and thoughts of the future. I believe these decisions would be easier, but lonelier, if I was completely single. And now I am faced with the balance of "my best," "his best," "our best," and which one is the priority. This balance is important in all aspects of life, not only the professional. I am passive aggressive and I don't want to settle on something I desire just to avoid confrontation, but I don't want to demand things that would not be best just because I want it.
Ah life. It is wonderful. I do know I am not perfect. Decisions and mistakes have been and will be made, but we will all survive. I have a wonderful support system who wants me to be happy at my best. I just have to figure out how to get there.
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